The ACOA big red book, page 628, teaches that growing up in a dysfunctional home meant that chaos was normal. As a result, some may have become adults who could not feel at ease when things were calm. They may have craved drama and excitement on such a subconscious level that they were drawn to it without realizing the reason why.
With me, I find that it’s hard for me to relax and feel at ease even when things seems to be calm. And I find that my anxiety goes into overdrive when there’s drama. I cannot seem to find a happy medium. I supposed the uncertainty of not knowing what would occur from day-to-day growing up was unnerving for me so I learned to always be on high alert.
Turning to a Higher Power for understanding and guidance has proven to be quite successful for me as I learn to navigate my deep seeded ACOA tendencies.
Hi, I’m Liz Hawkins and I’m a recovering Adult Child of an Alcoholic.
My ACoA Life 