It’s all an addiction

I used to get mad at my father because he couldn’t seem to stop drinking. I was mad that my brother too who couldn’t seem to give up the drugs. But I realize that addiction is a powerful thing and not easy to overcome.

I have always been a junk food addict. I’m just now calling it by its rightful name, “addict.” Sugar and salty snacks was my drug of choice. I could mindlessly graze on chips, popcorn, and candy throughout the day. Needless to say my weight reflected it. But I couldn’t seem to stop myself. That’s when I realized that I too have a problem. I have an addictive personality.

After admitting my problem, I decided to do something about it. I stopped eating junk food and sugary and salty snacks – cold turkey. It was hard, but after about three days I no longer craved the addictive foods. And after just 10 days of healthier eating and exercise, I loss six pounds.

Hi, I’m Liz Hawkins and I’m an Adult Child of and Alcoholic.

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The Desire to Self-Medicate

My brother died last month and naturally, I’m still dealing with that.  He had been a drug user his entire adult life.  And it was that vice that ultimately took his life.  Our father was an alcoholic and the damage that caused manifested in the next generation.

Blogger, Dr. Tian Dayton, says that ACOAs often self-medicate.  This was true of our father and it was also true of my brother.  The emotional, psychological and physiological set up that accompanies relationship trauma, can lead to self-medication, in which ACOAs like my brother seek a chemical solution for human problems.

Self-medicating can seem to be a solution in the immediate moment, as it really does make pain, anxiety, and physiological disturbances temporarily disappear, but in the long run, it creates many more problems than it solves.

I’m finding in my case, food is the addiction.  For someone else it may be shopping.  Regardless, there can be consequences for these addictions too, such as obesity, which brings on health issues like diabetes, or massive debt, which can lead to ruined credit or bankruptcy.

Getting and staying ‘sober’ for the ACOA means facing the pain we carry from growing up in our addiction-riddle environment.  Hi, I’m Liz Hawkins and I’m a recovering Adult Child of an Alcoholic.